I shared the link on FB and since then (this morning) I've had "anxiety" and/or the coffee jitters. Neither is unusual, not familiar or manageable. I am almost constantly self monitoring, clarifying and reflecting. I'm very, very, very aware of words and wording. I try to be aware of the words, message "intended" and what is NOT spoken and what THAT means (to me from my perspective). Adam said one time that I select my words very carefully, I agree and do that intentionally in the attempt to say what I/Roger intend to convey. Makes me long winded. I consider myself "a simple man, with complex ideas/thoughts". I'm very, very much aware of how I see myself and that undoubtedly and without fail that is different than others perceive me. I'm okay with that difference because there is almost nothing I can do to change the view of others even when I wish to. My own view is that I won't (intentionally or consciously) change solely to please others. I will change if I think the view of others IS more accurate than my own, but that is almost never based on one other person. I accept that long winded label/view because I DO "have something to say" as Sheila phrases it. Recently (last couple/few years) I'm more and more aware that many "block me out". I think that is almost a universal thing for many people as they age. Years ago I was repeatedly told that people pay attention when I speak, that's changed sometimes and more often as I've aged out of the generational dominant group. It is what it is, and an illustration of those ideas mentioned above about awareness, reflections and acceptance of perspectives.
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